Sunday, October 20, 2024

Deeply believed illusions are delusions

What is not meant for you will never stay. There is no job, no person, no city that you can force into being right for you if it simply isn’t. You can return to it for a while, twist yourself into knots trying to justify its presence, or tell yourself you’ll just give it a bit more time. But the truth is, if something is wrong for you, it reveals itself in the quiet chaos of your life—the endless confusion, the subtle unease that lingers every day. 

It’s tempting to hold on, to make excuses for why things aren’t working out right now. Maybe you tell yourself that the timing is off or that you're still adjusting. But deep down, you know. When something is truly right for you, clarity follows. There is a sense of peace, of ease, even in the challenges. What is wrong, on the other hand, traps you in endless cycles of doubt and questioning, trying to mold it into something it will never be.

And when we begin to believe in what is not true for us, it turns into a delusion. This delusion may be comfortable, even captivating, but it cannot last. What is not right for you will fade, no matter how tightly you cling to it. The moment you acknowledge this, you begin to release yourself from the fantasy. You might want to pretend that you don’t know, but you can feel it. The truth is always quietly there, waiting for you to let go.

Someone who liked greens but was the reddest flag as a person..

Pain driven rememberance vs Love driven rememberance... Attachment to the hurted child in me that needs justice and respect. But maybe, it's no longer love. 

When I see all the relationships around that unloved me (friends, family, work et al), I see what was wrong with me and how i have healed